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[02 Oct 2006|09:40pm] [ music | Sonic Youth - Teenage Riot ] Nightmare haunt me night to day Suspended motion kills the day Fake these notions to let me drown Square one again with nothing found Complexity kills the dream A shining light, more like a beam Animated steps to the war But nothing kills what we came for The thought conceived, you're paralyzed All made up with a pack of lies See me once, you're sick of it See me twice, you're full of shit Forget the pain, pull down the screen It makes quite the entertaining scene Screaming silent, whispering loud My greatest achievement and I'm not proud post comment

[14 Sep 2006|10:38pm] [ music | Elliott Smith - Talking To Mary ] Build up the lies I kept in dreams Fight your way into the seams Figure out my secret story So here I stand in all my glory To speak over again in simplicity Not to hinder but that's not me You say you miss me, that's such a lie With the lies you told me I hope you die Saying out what should be true Kept inside to pleasure you I killed myself to prove some view That kept me somehow attached to you So here's the end in all it's glory You figured out my secret story You fought your way into the seams You found out lies I kept in dreams post comment

[30 Aug 2006|11:01pm] [ music | Elliott Smith - Oh well, okay ] Blinded by stupidity The things tossed back and forth to me I keep them all and throw away The ones that I don't want to say So please just leave me here I'll fight it off, it's all just fear Seemingly the path is clear But you're not there to make me hear Living through a pack of lies I forget to keep my alibis Late at night my mind roams far It wonders how just how you are Courtesy of senseless scheme I must cast a ray of beam To the house and back and forth Until the void is made to yours You keep it all and say it's mine I found it quite an interesting find I fell in love, I fell behind Now I know it was a waste of time post comment

[18 Aug 2006|01:41am] I caught it all and looked to the moon I found out the lie that I kept true My mind simplistic, stuck on you That stupid fucked up primitive view Shine down and keep it strong Let it drain and sell the wrong For the lies you'll pay a fee Just another fucked up image of me Medicate to forget too soon Cause there's no such thing No such thing as too caught up But I realized that I fucked up Enter the world of softer hue Where I can stand to look at you Where I can stand to stay alive Cause I'm falling deeper down inside Fallen deep with no below I draw myself to really show I tell myself it's okay to hate But reality says that I'm too late What's wrong now is fate That I created mine too late Now I'm left sitting but hey I'm just forming my own self-cliche Draw myself in silhouette grace But I forgot what side to face I run away in deepening haste I run away with deepening haste.. post comment

[26 Jul 2006|10:31pm] [ music | Elliott Smith - Shooting Star ] Stare all night into twilight Good memories reflect in moonlight Serenade til' the moon gives way Ignite the spark and we're on our way You're someone that I want to know Sit down and watch the love grow Oohhh the things we could create Not sure about you, but I'm no fake Raining are the tears of fallen Almost here but I'm still falling Confessions here I try to make I try to say it but it sounds fake Breathe again and let's go through Another untold portion of you Talking out the hardest part Sinking deeper into my heart You're someone that I want to know Sit down and watch the love grow Oohhh the things we could create Not sure about you, but I'm no fake post comment

[01 Apr 2006|12:03am] [ music | Nirvana - Milk It ] Left a momento on your door The note I left went something... I don't think that we are anymore I think that feeling was nothing So wrapped up in my mind So lost that I can't find... Myself! And I feel so bad Because now I made you sad Let's cheer up and forget about The past and everything that follows It's so pointless to sit and pout Take other's feelings, I keep, don't borrow I'm so sorry I led you on I'm so sorry I made you cry Let's pack up, it's close to dawn I'll let you out of yourself and into the sky This is all I ever wanted Nothing less, no emotional fit Just an apology, nothing flaunted But now, fuck you, I'm through with this shit post comment

[27 Mar 2006|09:50pm] [ music | Elliott Smith - Say Yes ] Sitting here, so serene Time standing still like a movie scene I see you there and smile a beam I woke up, realizing a dream Sweet daydream Slow rising steam Slow moving stream But I have to ask Did you really mean? Did you really mean? Did you really mean? I saw dark, only a gleam Shadows in midnight Fighting silence, wanting to scream Finding darkness in the light Sweet daydream Slow rising steam Slow moving stream But I have to ask Did you really mean? Did you really mean? Did you really mean? Painting pictures on the wall Slowly waiting for my downfall Walking on a plateau, down a hall Waiting here, for my call Sweet daydream Slow rising steam Slow moving stream But I have to ask Did you really mean? Did you really mean? Did you really mean? post comment

[21 Mar 2006|10:56pm] [ music | Elliott Smith - Sweet Adeline ] Tear up your old photographs I'll take my life onto the map My old depression in my lap My new found happy on my back One last sonnet No second chance Fire on the comet Strike me with a glance Suppression of bad habits Failing over and over Tearing up my clover Bad luck rains Emotional drain Fake optimism Strong pacifism Inorganic organism Original, but cliche Leave me as I lay Speak to me when I say Speak to me when I say... 2 comments|post comment

[17 Mar 2006|07:36pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Elliott Smith - Pictures of Me ] I'll try to take away The things I'll never say I'll keep you in suspense Because I'm kinda' dense Trying to forget The things that I regret The things that I should leave Buried under my sleeve Hopelessly forgotten My mind is nearly rotten The sun outside is shining But my soul inside is whining Trying to forget The things that I regret The things that I should leave Buried under my sleeve Stupid and mindless Effortless and thoughtless Screaming silent, whispering loud My greatest achievement, I'm not proud Trying to forget The things that I regret The things that I should leave Buried under my sleeve post comment

[11 Mar 2006|12:41am] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Elliott Smith - Between the Bars ] Long days and lonely nights The inner urge I cannot fight I can't say I love you I can't say I don't miss you My brain tells me no But my soul tells me yes The only thing we know The thing I must confess My mind, I kept a secret My poetry as an outlet It's ok, it's something you'll let I'll cry and watch the sunset The ambience of regret My soul, my secret best kept Only you connect Only I forget God, just give me one chance Let it be my agnostic karma Give me one last dance Let it be depression's nirvana Your voice, it is affection Your kiss, my soul's confection Your life, my mental connection This poem, my deepest confession Turn the candle down slow Turn the light down low My dreams, let them flow My sincerity, let it go I'll fake it through the day Thoughts of you will fade away I'll think of you to my dismay I'll hear my thoughts and let them play I'll pretend that I don't care Secretly, it's not fair In reality, we were a pair Reality, it isn't there post comment

[24 Feb 2006|06:31pm] [ music | Pagoda - The Happy Song ] The Symphony of Our Lives Confused, but assured High, but lying down Thoughts pass me by Close my eyes, and fall through the lies We all fear death We never cherish life Cut off that breath Cut off that knife Withdrawn, but outgoing Drowning, but floating Sometimes, the rain helps me feel Sometimes, my dreams make me real We all fear death We never cherish life Cut off that breath Cut off that knife Closed, but unsolved Sympathy, but hatred Feelings, forgotten and dissolved Media, blind and force-fed We all fear death We never cherish life Cut off that breath Cut off that knife Hungry, but satisfied Angry, but pacified I wanted to confide I realized I lied We all fear death We never cherish life Cut off that breath Cut off that knife Betrayed, but saddened Sympathized, but maddened I had everything, now I'm nothing Take away, show me something We all fear death We never cherish life Cut off that breath Cut off that knife __________________________________ Welcome to the Fold Welcome to my mind Welcome to my thought Come destroy my hopes Or destroy my enemies Welcome to my sanity Everything in vanity Happy thoughts and happy songs Happy sins and happy wrongs Welcome to my fear Where there's nothing open to see Nothing left to hear As my thoughts hide from your eyes Welcome to my future Essence dependent on fate Dependent on your decision Make sure you think with precision Welcome to my death The moment of my last breath Leaving behind the world Only holding my opinions Well it seems like another sad story told The last thing I have to say, is welcome, to the fold post comment

[14 Feb 2006|05:33pm] Sunken eyes and sunken ships Broken hearts and broken dreams Liquid feel-good hit my stream Awkward moments make me scream I'll see you on the other side These marks of sin I'll try to hide Talking straight into your eyes Do not ask me and I won't lie Hero to my seclusion- Force-feeding a conclusion These sights, they are delusions My dreams, they are illusions Itchy arms and itchy veins Feel-good liquid, drive me insane Inject the emotion, forget the pain My deathbed sheets are neatly lain post comment

[12 Feb 2006|08:38pm] [ music | Nirvana - Sappy ] A friend of mine died I kept it all inside I think it's cause I lied I am still here so.. A part of me is dead The part of me that talks Words I should've said The words that I will dread A part of you has freed A part of me that slaved The part of me that breathes The part you could've saved A part of me is dead The part of me that talks Words I should've said The words that I will dread A part of me was shot The one that might've thought Now I feel distraught Let me die and rot Part of me to blame The one that feels ashamed The one that I will maime For playing in your game A part of me is dead The part of me that talks Words I should've said The words that I will dread A part of me is dead The part of me that talks Words I should've said The words that I will dread I figured it was real What was fake I couldn't feel Believe in my mythology I think you owe me an apology For playing in your game post comment

[07 Feb 2006|09:44pm] [ music | Soundgarden - Black Hole Sun ] Warm carress My fuel is her love She keeps me burning As I melt in her arms Holding back what she should know Coincidental feelings Feeling an inner glow Fairy tale feeling real Anticipating your smile Feeling your warmth Walking down an aisle Feeling invincible from the world Holding back what she should know Coincidental feelings Feeling an inner glow Fairy tale feeling real Surrounded in spectral glow Realism strikes only a flash Feelings you will never know All my sorrow withered to ash Holding back what she should know Coincidental feelings Feeling an inner glow Fairy tale feeling real I see you and the world stops I just thought you should know I see you and my heart stops I just thought you should know.. post comment

[01 Feb 2006|03:26pm] New poetry journal... yeah. Do it up. -Nate post comment

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